tonight

i pray that your dreams come true
i pray that the change comes soon
i pray for food, shelter, and health
i pray that your mom feels better
i pray that you come home safe to your girls
i pray that tomorrow we are all alive and well
i pray for the strength to face it alone
i pray for warmth while we sleep
i pray that i get to keep my job and impress my boss
i pray for good sleep
i pray that those before me are with me to keep me strong
i pray that my julian knows he's loved unconditionally
i pray that we all make it happen for one more day
i pray for justice, equality, and the chance to make it work
i pray for you, that you are ok, and that you know i miss you
i pray to have enough to make it happen
i pray my heart can withstand the sadness
i pray that happiness finds its way into your heart
i pray ...

why are people lilttle shits?

Do you ever wonder why, when you are minding your business and doing your own thing, someone comes along and unprovoked, acts like a complete and total shit, and throws your world off for just a second?

Is it because they themselves are sad little individuals that deserve nothing but the lack of respect they give?

I remember being a teenager once and acting like a little shit. But i don't remember being unprovoked by anyone and purposefully setting out to hurt them, just because i could.

Sort of makes you wonder about their own miserable existence.

I think i'll keep singing my own song now. It's a happy tune these days.

I still believe that good things come to good people.

I keep my dreams close, and my friends in my prayers.

And tonight, i post guard by my feverish dream of a boy ...

Good things come to good people damm it. I'm waiting.

ohhhhhhhhhhh man

So i've been in bed for quite a while now ... it seems like a while anyway. I am freaking bored out of my mind. I had to go back to the doc yesterday because my temp was 103 and clearly whatever antibiotics they gave me were not working. My current diagnosis is an upper resp infection coupled with farynghythis. I don't even think i spelled that right. This is what i look like today



Thankfully i haven't had a temp today, so eating looks like it may happen. I don't get sick very often, but when i do it's crap like this. I don't think i've been this sick since i was five years old. I was a whinny bitch yesterday lmao. And i knew it too! I slept for a good 13 hours, and i think come monday i will be all good. In the meantime, i hope no one gets this sick ever in life. Seriously.

100 things about you

1. You make me laugh till my face hurts
2. You love coffee
3. You know wine
4. You love to read
5. You like to debate
6. You love Julian
7. You open the door for me
8. You try to keep me in bed when it's time to get up
9. You are a better cook than me
10. You make home home
11. You tell me i'm beautiful
12. You allow me to make you happy
13. You send me text messages letting me know i'm on your mind
14. You are hard working
15. You are responsible
16. You love music
17. You have amazing skin
18. You like surprising me
19. You help me carry the groceries in
20. You are such a good kisser
21. You usually let me have my way
22. You rub my feet
23. You kill the bugs for me
24. Your eyes are so beautiful
25. You buy me flowers
26. You are so damm sexy
27. You are outspoken
28. You're understanding
29. You're caring
30. You think i look sexy in sweats
31. You're honest
32. You love to travel
33. You kiss my forehead
34. You are kind
35. I trust you unconditionally
36. You love my body
37. You want to have children with me
38. You hold my hand and it fits perfectly
39. You like spending time with me
40. You love your mom
41. You listen to me when i ask you to
42. You are my best friend
43. You're generous
44. You are grateful
45. You treat me as your equal
46. You make time for me
47. You're a good driver
48. You forgive me
49. You're trustworthy
50. Your body fits mine
51. You put up with my family
52. You dream big
53. You let me talk about my bad dreams in the middle of the night
54. You're athletic
55. You are so smart
56. You keep me focused
57. You're not hairy
58. You chose me
59. You desire dialogue
60. You're loyal
61. You love your friends
62. You read my blogs
63. You don't mind that i snore
64. You don't give up
65. You say you're sorry and you mean it
66. Your hands on me and the way they feel
67. You know how to fix things
68. You have perfect teeth
69. You like going to dinner
70. You love my friends and they love you
71. You are a giver and won't be satisfied till i'm happy :)
72. You give me butterflies
73. You let me fall asleep on you
74. You want to go see Colombia
75. You spoil me and let me spoil you
76. You have such a way with words
77. You know how to do the laundry
78. You play wii games with me
79. You cheer me up just by being you
80. You are romantic
81. You know much more about cars than me
82. You allow me room to grow
83. You notice when i look nice
84. You don't forget my birthday
85. You love taking showers with me
86. You think i look cute when i just woke up
87. You like going out to dance
88. Your happiness is not contingent upon me and vice versa
89. You look hot in boxers
90. You like spending time in bed just because
91. You're spontaneous
92. You go to 12:15 movie premieres
93. You are better than ice cream (even better than chunkie monkey)
94. You think i'm a good mother
95. You don't have to question my love for you
96. You don't think i'm a nerd for loving NPR
97. You treat me well
98. You don't like to argue
99. You know me well
100. You are god sent